Saturday, January 14, 2012

What more do people want from me anyway?

Through my life, I would say that I was more or less I good person. I haven't really bullied anybody, ostracized people, gossipped like others do (maybe once in a while but not that much), always tried to offer help when people needed it, and tried to understand people. I would say that there was a phase where I had some issues due to me growing up as a teen, and dealing with mood swings, but I wouldn't consider myself to be an evil person in any way. However, I feel as if some peopel who backstab me, and say lies about me to others always seem to make it look like I have a problem getting along or having compion with others people. It's quit ehypocritical because I don't see myself not sympathising with other people when they come to ME to listen to their idiotic problemsx for hours on end, and I LISTEN to them. I don't make degrading quips to other people, I don't ignore them. I don't socialize as much that dfoesn't mean that I don't care about people. My philosophy was that many friends out there have tended to be shallow, judgmental, competititve, and not very tolerant of my perceived flaws and that it woudl be a waste of time trying to conform to other's expectations of me at the sacrifice of my well-being. I think that it is better to pursue my own hobbies and think of bettering myself. I find that many people just consider this selfish (for some reason or other) but I beg to disagree. When I am in a bad situation, most people don't help me and use it as a reason to feel like they are superior and gloat at me. When I am in a good situation, people become jealous, or pretend to be friendly in order to get some profit. So I think, why do I have to be made out like some kind fo bad person? Is this my fault or are there so many haters out there?

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